I'm a Racist

Yep, no doubt about it, I am, I am. Now I've suspected this about myself for many years but mostly I lived in non-white areas or at least in very ethnically mixed areas so it was easy to avoid the white folks. Besides, I've always had some white friends so I could ignore the issue.

A bit over three years of living here in white-bread, cracker-town, Nevada and I have to face it. I don't like most of us. Yes, I said us because I am white. As white as the sheets some of ya'll like to wear on your heads, blue eyes and all.

My first you-have-to-face-this-issue moment was when one of my children married a white person. Now all my children are white too so you would think this would not be an issue. It is. I've never said a word about it, I've left it completely alone, I adore my little white grandbaby...but...it still bothers me. I can't trust and I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop, waiting for my white in-law to pull some cracker tricks. That's how deep it goes.

When I went to vote here in Pahrumpistan I felt overwhelmed. I was surrounded by a sea of whiteness, I kept waiting for them to burst out with a chorus of "white power". I was literally sweating waiting to vote and get out of there before I had a complete panic attack.

I wanted to go to the Town Board meeting where Mr. Ding-Dong Miraglia was trying to push through the new "charge to illegals to live here" ordinance (which did not pass, Featheriver has the details) but I was afraid to go. I was afraid to be surrounded by gun-toting crackers. Turned out the meeting was packed with Hispanic people, I wish I had known, I'd have gone.

So there it is, I'm afraid of my "own kind". I don't trust you, especially not in large groups. When I see a group of you I can only believe you are discussing who to scalp next. Who to destroy in the name of preserving your "traditional values". Which values are those? The ones about killing people who have something you want to take? The ones about non-whites being thieves who just want to rob you or take your jobs? Exactly which freaking values are you trying to protect, please tell me because I have no idea. The only thing I see us being "traditionally" really good at is kicking the crap out of everyone who isn't us and smacking them back down if they have the nerve to complain.

I sincerely hope that someday we will not be the majority. I hope NO ONE gets to be a majority. I hope people just have to learn to deal with each other as individuals and fucking get over the whole gotta "protect my culture" bullshit. It is bullshit. You're human. Deal with it.